:'(

You left me breathless, and now I can't breath
I gave you my heart, and now there is a hole in my chest
Even though it isn't over, it feels to me like it will be. I hurt you. The one thing unforgivable in your books, I did, and am now asking for your forgiveness.

I know I shouldn't even be asking this from you, but I love you to much to let you go without a fight. If, by some miracle, you do forgive me, I will make it my sole mission to never hurt you again, physically or emotionally. I will never let anyone hurt you. I will be there for you. If you give me the chance, I will make it up to you a thousand times over.

I know, I am asking so much from you, more than I should be. But I know I love you, and would do anything not to lose you.

I am not HIM. I can change. I will change. I am changing. And I know it will never happen again, because I cannot bare the thought of losing you.

Do what you believe is best for you. Just way up the reasons for staying, against the ones for leaving, and make your decision from there. Look into your heart, and follow it. If it tells you that you don't want to risk compromising any of your values, do what you have to. But if you feel that your heart is telling you that I can be trusted, that the promises I make to you will be kept, if your heart is saying that you love me enough to give me one more chance, please forgive me.

All I ask is that you think about what you really want. Think about both sides, weigh up the two outcomes and pick which ever one you believe will be the best for you. Just know I love you, more than anyone does. Just know I am willing to do whatever it takes to make this right, to return your trust in me. Even if it takes a lifetime.

Just do what is best for you.

I love you kass. More than you know.

again...

ive said it before and ill say it again. im sorry. so sorry.

i promise to never hurt you again
i promise to tell you whats going on with me
i promise to never blog in haste again
i promise to never ask you to choose spending time with me over doing homework and assignments due soon
i promise to stop asking you to come over, and will make more of an effort to go to yours
i promise to give you space when you need it
i promise to let you get on with your work in school and not annoy you
i promise to be happier and try my hardest not to bring your mood down

all these things i happily promise to do, because i love you.

i hope things work out soon.

i love you kass

I fucked up

I fucked up and I'm really sorry. My blog was made in haste and I didn't mean it. I wish I could fix whatever I did, but I don't want to pester you about it. I love you, and it sucks knowing that I've hurt or upset you in any way. I really am sorry. I love you.

Please forgive me

all i can say....

all i can say is, what the fuck did i do now?
what the bloody hell could i have done to make you so pissed off, that when i say im sorry and that i love you, you ignore me, you dont talk to me or even look at me?
and do you care about anything? seriously?
"should i stay longer?"
"i dont care"

"can i see you this weekend?"
"i dont care"

>:(

i love you, so when your ready to talk to me again just come fuckin find me

fuck me, a blog post :O

been a while hasent it? well its here now

just figured out i say certain things when i feel certain ways. since i suspect no one will read this anyway, no harm puttin some up here.

when im pissed off, i tend to say things like:

hi instead of hey or hello
sdoin? instead of what you up to?
i use one word answers
mhmm instead of yes, yeh, or yep
haha instead of hahaha bahaha etc.

well im bored with you now so fuck off