new day

hey guys. how is every one today?
i dont know about you, but i feel lighter. not happier, just different i guess.
i've come to realise the me being a sad S.O.B isnt going to fix anything, so i maybe if i just act happy, try to make a friendship again like we had before, then i will be happy. i liked the way it was, so i suppose i should jut aspire to have that. being good friends isnt the same as being with her, but it looks like its as close as im goin to get to her. and i'll live with that, because its better then how it seems to be at this moment in time.

im not sure what to write about anymore, now that im trying to re-define my blogging experience. i guess i can still talk about her, but im trying to cut back. if she is reading this i just want to say im sorry how things turned out. ill always care about you, and if you ever need me ill be here for you, all you have to do is ask. if someone close to her is reading this, it would be nice if you could pass on the message for me, because i dont want to make things more awkward by telling her myself.

so where should i start. ok, today started out pretty crappy, dreams and shit not treating me well. but i guess, just talking to friends and listening to music today helped me to deal with things. i know that theres one friend, who i havnt known for very long, but still shes helped me out as if we'd known each other for many years. thank you.

if your reading this, feel free to say hello.

i guess thats all i can blog for today. im out

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