FUCK!!!!!

ok, just so you know, this is one of those blogs i talked about a while ago. the ones where you dont tell HER what im saying.

this is just something i need to get off my chest. lately, ive started worrying that i will start drifting apart from some of my closest mates, because *** wants to spend time with them, and would feel to awkward with me around. well i realised that today a sacraficed spending time with MY friends so that *** could have a good time, because if i was there, she would feel to umcomfortable, even though she dumped me, ages ago, after only a week.

i am over it, but it feels as though she isnt. why? is there something ive missed here, in the translation from the crazy, fucked up and impossible to understand chick language, to guy language, the only one i know? what the hell is happening?

i hate feeling like this, and i know its not intentional, because shes not that big a bitch. but maybe i dont know her aswell as i thought.

like today, i could have spent time with some friends, but decided not to because she would be there, and i didnt want to ruin the day. i barely EVER spend time with these guys, and i sacrificed this one chance for a stupid reason. what the hell is wrong with me? right, i already know. EVERYTHING!!!

fuck you! <-----not directed at anyone in particular, just fuck you!

well im out, i rekon ill break down at any time, so bye

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